It has been some time since I’ve posted last, and for those who follow this blog/our journey and have been waiting for updates, I apologize!! Time just flies! So, without further ado….
Welcome back! 🙂
I think I wanted to start off this post with thanking everyone who inquired about how I have been doing and those that keep sending their congratulations to us! Some days it still doesn’t feel real.
I am now 19 weeks…I cant believe my last post was when I was just 11 weeks! Did I say that time flies?! We are finally to the point where we will discover what the sex of our babies will be, and I must say, It will probably become more ‘real’ (as if the whole, ‘my pants don’t fit’ wasn’t real enough). I am crossing fingers they cooperate and aren’t too shy to show the nice people their privates! We are planning on having a gender reveal party, so we’re going to have the sonographer write down what genders they are and we’re having a special cake made at our local bakery to show it! My mouth is watering just thinking of it. Once our family knows, we will announce it more publicly. Anyway!
We found a new OB clinic and really like it. We met our doctor as well and seem to like her and think she will do a good job for us. When the time comes, we will get to deliver at Mother Baby Center, which I am thrilled about! Otherwise, as far as pregnancy goes, it has been going pretty well for me. I feel like I deserve it. Haha. It’s a pretty nice trade off I say. We also know while my actual due date is August 6th, we will not go past 38 weeks! So, that puts me before August, and actually at the end of July! Whew!! Of course, there is always the chance I could deliver well before 38 weeks, that’s the furthest I’ll go if I make it that far.
On a more personal note…
This has been one hell-of-a-year for myself and my family. Lately, I have been feeling so much emotion with finally becoming pregnant after 3 rough years, to losing my dad before it could happen. We are coming up to one full year since we lost him just 4 days after making it to his 50th birthday. We could easily probably blame this on the extra hormones I have, but hey, what’s a pregnant girl to do!? It’s just been a really trying year. So many emotions regardless, from being disappointed at failed previous attempts, to heart broken when my dad passed during it all, and then back to happy and thrilled again when our first round of IVF worked for us.
I also want those to know (especially the ones that I know personally) that are still struggling with the pain that is infertility that I still feel YOUR pain. I know what you’re feeling, what you’re thinking and I am praying for you all to achieve the goal of creating your families. I am always here for you. I don’t for one second, take my pregnancy for granted. I know that for all of you, you will see the light and things will become easier with time and you’ll get your positives! Whether that’s carrying your own baby or going another route. We know that things work in mysterious ways, and we are given only the things we can handle. So, kudos to those of us that were dealt with this less-than ideal hand of life and are trying to figure out how to navigate it! Stay strong. All of you.
-Courtney